Contemplating a Simple Life

As I sat in the sun

on a cold winter morning

I contemplated a

simple life

That allowed

easy rhythms

a nourished soul

a happy heart

a peaceful mind

I thought of

the lack of deadlines

transferred stress of others

quibling over irrelevant things

being treated as if

 I was less than good

a servant to superficial whims and desires

of the selfishly inclined

I thought of these things

and banished them from my heart

for I kow that my path

is only now being laid

brick by brick

my intentions are bringing me forward

my desires are

breaking down doors

every opportunity

a fulfillment of my

desires

I contemplate a

simple life

filled with

the true essence

of myself

following my truest path

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The picture is my own of the roses that I bought for myself on my birthday.  Their color was simply stunning and I couldn't say no to them...their color so interesting and different.  Lilac purple with pink and crimson, hints of cream and fuschia.  Hot and cold at the same time...perfect since I have been feeling as if I have been living in the "in Between" again.  Desperately wanting to move forward and upward from all that holds me still in this place of constant giving, without the the ability of my soul to have it filled back up.  A slice of me is becoming a person that I don't like...one that cannot deal with those who would take all from you and give nothing back.  I am trying to be happy, and small things do light my days.  Yet, I know there is going to come a turning point that I can no longer work for someone else...my soul cannot handle it anymore.  So, I am forging ahead to try and thing of all the things that I am good at, how to sell my self and all that I can offer to the world. 

 I am formulating my escape plan...one spoonful at a time.