Monday, December 22, 2008

Words

So, what do you do when you hear "we found a small tumor in your brain. But, don't worry, most brain tumors are benign".

The Neurologist told me not to worry, that I might have had it for a long time. I might just live to be 99 and never have it grow any larger. I might never have to worry about it again, but we really need to do some more tests to make sure.

Ok, I won't worry.

Famous last words, don't you think?
I was expecting a diagnosis of a pinched nerve, a slipped disk. But a brain tumor? It could be something, it could be nothing. Now isn't that something? I'm only 36, with a lot of unfinshed business, dammit.

I think I need to re-evaluate my life, my priorities. I have always been of the notion that life is too short and that we have to live each day like it was our last and without regret. That is always easier said than done.
Now, I may not have a choice but to do that.

It could be something, it could be nothing.
Could you say a prayer for the "nothing" option? I think that I need all of the help that I can get :)

2 comments:

Kate I said...

I've been stopping by your lovely site for some time now, but have never left a message...today I want to say hello and tell you that I'm so sorry that you have this worry. I'm sending thoughts of peace and prayers of love and healing your way. Blessings to you, Kasia Blue.

From This Moment to That said...

Hello Kasia Blue, I'm sorry not to have been around much lately, it's just the holidays get in the way of my important blogging days. I'm so sorry that your visit to that Neurologist was so scary, I think anyone of us would be feeling the same as you my friend. It's a great leveller a scare like that but take heart he did say you would be alright, him being the Specialist I'm sure he knows his business, and no doubt he will be tracking that little blip carefully for you dear friend. I am sending you big big hugs 'OOOOO'!!! and much love and healing across from our home to yours...winging it's way to you this very moment across the oceans and mountains. May your New Year be blessed. Thinking of you. X
Jane

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