New Territory with an Old Love

I have been an Alchemist for many lifetimes.  The realization came to me slowly over the past few years, and the truth of my soul pattern has won out over the resistance that has presided around me.  As some of you may, or may not know, my education is in Medicinal Chemistry.  An Organic branch that specializes in making medicines and pharmaceuticals. 

Yet, this is not what I do for a living.  I have worked for a major grocery retailer for the past 10 years, cutting the cheese with a smile(well, most of the time).  My decision to leave my profession was dual fold, one by choice and the other by necessity.  You see, both my hubby and I worked for the same company and as I was starting my third trimester of pregnancy with my daughter Sarah, they started to downsize...three times to be exact.  I was spared each time, but with a bun in the oven and all our eggs in one basket, we were scared for our future to say the least.  That was when I decided to look for different employment.  As you could imagine, jobs in my profession were pretty scarce in Buffalo and my options at 7 months pregnant were few and far between.  Many nights were spent soul searching and scanning the job ads, which at that point were multiple pages (unlike now with 4 pages that include job hunting tips and advertisements....sad, but true). 

I haven't regretted leaving the place where I worked, but I sure miss the work.  It is something that I have struggled with more and more as time has gone on...knowing that something was missing, knowing that there is a void that needs to be filled by the choices I have made.  When I was getting my degree I truly felt satisfied with the work that I was doing, studying until I was bleary eyed, memorizing reactions to the point that I was a walking textbook.  Yet, here I am today...

Long ago I had this dream to have my own skin care line.  It was about 15 years ago and hey, I was young and the world was my oyster.  I was full of hopes and dreams, rosy colored glasses and blue cloudless skies.  My potential was unlimited...and then I became an adult.  Bills and obligations started to roll in, I fell in love, got married, had kids, and a mortgage.  My dreams had been put on hold, indefinitely.

If you have been following my blog, you know that I had a little scare with a brain tumor about a year and a half ago.  Gratefully, it was only there to get my ass in gear and set me back on my path.  I have been thinking, soul searching, reading books, you name it to find my direction. 

And then, one day, I bought some shea butter and essential oils...

I started to play around.  Made a batch of super body butter from the recipe that came in the package (with my own tweaks of course) and sampled it out to a few friends.

Then I forgot about it.  Not intentionally, really.  It was just because it was Christmas and I was selling jewelry and doing shows, working FT, taking care of kids, hubby, home.  I was plain tuckered out.  There was no time.

The new year rolled in and I still had lotions on the brain.
 People were asking if I actually made some more.  I will, still working on it, maybe next week, were my responses. 

Kasia Blue was burned out.

Then I started to have my lion dreams.  Over and over a roaring lion across a great chasm in room 413 (don't ask, I never said that I was normal).  Then the camel colored lion with crazy lotion or shaving cream all over his mane roaring at me in my otherwise grey colored dream "Are you ready yet?"

 Ready for what?

I had another dream not too long after that and this name just came to me, tag line and all...Body Luxe, your body, only better.  There you go, you already have your name.  Now, go make some lotion!

I bought some raw materials, bottles, had my graphic designer put together my labeling/branding (Seriously, I have a graphic designer, it sounds so foreign to say that but good at the same time).  Then, I started blending, measuring, emulsifying, experimenting.

I cannot tell you how good it was to be back home.  My Alchemist soul was in bloom once again.

So, here is my introduction of Body Luxe to the world.  I have already set up my Etsy shop and will be listing items after my show this weekend at the Earth Spirit Expo in Hamburg NY (if you're from the area, stop in and say hi!  i'd love to see you).  All of my items will eventually be listed at my Kasia Blue website... but baby steps for now.

Best case scenario, I'll have nothing left to list and will have to make more.  Please send some good lovin' vibes my way so that I seel out!  I'd like to seel some jewelry too, since I still am enamoured with all things sparkly :)

I am finding my bliss throough the roughly winding path we call life.  I pray that you too, can find yours.

I'll play along...if i were

**photo courtesy of free e-cards**

if i were a month i'd be September with crisp air and a kaleidoscope of colors,

if i were a day i’d be autumn equinox,

if i were a time of day i’d be sunset, with brillinat colors dancing through the sky,

if i were a font i’d be something scrolled, ornate and complicated,

if i were a sea animal i’d be a dolphin,

if i were a direction i’d be northwest,

if i were a piece of furniture i’d be

a soft comfortable couch...the kind you could sink into and not want to leave

if i were a liquid i’d be olive oil...nourishing to the body and the soul,

if i were a gemstone i’d be labradorite, flashy and mysterious

if i were a tree i’d be apple,

if i were a tool i’d be a hammer,

if i were a flower i’d be an iris of the most glorious blue purple color,

if i were an element of weather i’d be wind,

if i were a musical instrument i’d be a violin,

if i were a color i’d be cerulean blue,

if i were an emotion i’d be love,

if i were a fruit i’d be a cantaloupe,

if i were a sound i’d be the laughter of a child,

if i were an element i’d be air,

if i were a food i’d be creamy rich tallegio cheese, slightly tangy and salty but oh so irresitable,

if i were a place i’d be the Mediterranean,

if i were material i’d be silk,

if i were a taste i’d be pistachio gelato,

if i were a scent i’d be bergamot, sandalwood, neroli, rose and ripe fruit,

if i were a body part i’d be an eye,

if i were a song i’d be Mercy,

if i were a bird i’d be a Chickadee,

if i were a gift i’d be a loving embrace,

if i were a city i’d be Florence,

if i were a door i’d be a glass door that let sunlight in,

if i were a pair of shoes i’d be sexy slingbacks,

if i were a poem i would be this: Footprints...because God is always there to lift you up, even when you feel that he isn't there.


This moment of self indulgence was inspired by Debi over at Emmatree and Graciel of Evenstar Art.

If you'd like to play along, I'd love to find out what you'd be.  Leave a comment with a link to your post.  Thanks, my lovely friends!

Create Your World

Create your world as you would see fit

surround yourself with all that you can imagine

and make it a reality

start from the bottom up

and clean out the debris of yesterday

of negativity and doubt

of self sabotage and fear

Create the beauty that you want to behold

declutter your task list with wasteful items

and fill it with anything that makes you smile

a walk in the park

playing with children

reading a good book

fill it with anything that advances your soul

Create the person you would like to be

forget the status quo and be true to yourself

plan your future for what you want

not for what you are told to be

make your blissful life in your mind

then write it out

act it out

shout it out

become the happiness

that resides within

Create your world to be perfect for you

and take a chance on yourself

You'll be so glad that you did!

Contemplating a Simple Life

As I sat in the sun

on a cold winter morning

I contemplated a

simple life

That allowed

easy rhythms

a nourished soul

a happy heart

a peaceful mind

I thought of

the lack of deadlines

transferred stress of others

quibling over irrelevant things

being treated as if

 I was less than good

a servant to superficial whims and desires

of the selfishly inclined

I thought of these things

and banished them from my heart

for I kow that my path

is only now being laid

brick by brick

my intentions are bringing me forward

my desires are

breaking down doors

every opportunity

a fulfillment of my

desires

I contemplate a

simple life

filled with

the true essence

of myself

following my truest path

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The picture is my own of the roses that I bought for myself on my birthday.  Their color was simply stunning and I couldn't say no to them...their color so interesting and different.  Lilac purple with pink and crimson, hints of cream and fuschia.  Hot and cold at the same time...perfect since I have been feeling as if I have been living in the "in Between" again.  Desperately wanting to move forward and upward from all that holds me still in this place of constant giving, without the the ability of my soul to have it filled back up.  A slice of me is becoming a person that I don't like...one that cannot deal with those who would take all from you and give nothing back.  I am trying to be happy, and small things do light my days.  Yet, I know there is going to come a turning point that I can no longer work for someone else...my soul cannot handle it anymore.  So, I am forging ahead to try and thing of all the things that I am good at, how to sell my self and all that I can offer to the world. 

 I am formulating my escape plan...one spoonful at a time.