Rebirthday

~*{ One of my favorite pictures from The Summer of Pink and Yellow, by me of course}*~

Today is my Rebirthday.  And today, I turn One.  A whole year has come to pass since my scare with the thing in my head, the little smudge that turned a life around.  Today was the day that all things that I thought to be true vanished.  I was stunned, and scared about my future.  That day started a journey of the soul that has led me to know my self better, to hash out all of the muck that has held me back, to birth the real person that I am inside.
So today I celebrate my Rebirthday, with a searing headache that feels as if a poker is going through my left eye then up and around my head...the same side of the smudge.  Maybe it's just saying, don;t forget of what I have done for you, remember me for my goodness.  Maybe it just wants to have a piece of cake.  We all like cake, don't we?  But really, it's probably just the stress of not being quite where I wanted to be in life (and still in a place that doesn't hold my highest and best good as a top priority), a year later from the day of reconning.  Maybe it's saying, you made a promise not to be stuck in your old life, so get on with it there sweetheart.  I'll take that last statement to be the truth.  I am getting on with it, because I am further along the path than I sometimes realize.
So when I write to you on my second Rebirthday these are the wishes that I would love to have come true...
1. to be happy and healthy, with the same for all that I hold dear
2. To be living my dream life and being fulfilled by the truest and best career/job/occupation that I choose
3.  To keep sharing myself with the world, one snippit at a time (and that people want to hear about it!)
4.  To have my soul bloom into all that I need at that moment, to be my truest and best self

Happy Rebirthday to me!

Fragments

The tree fell to the ground

hard

thump

shatter

splinter

crash

silence

shards of technicolor glass

everywhere

fragments

pieces

slices

of my past

teardrops start to fall

down their

cheeks

hands

my heart

I have lost my past

in an

instant

moment

minute

lifetime

I kneel on the floor

amidst the glass

poked

sliced

bleeding

fingers

remembering the wounds

of yesterday

my past is no more

just shattered

and discarded

like the glinting

rainbow of glass

collected

in my weary hands

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Dedicated to my Christmas tree that decided that it had had enough glitz and gllimmer for one year and simply wanted to take a rest ...on the floor, facedown, shattering almost every vintage (and not so vintage) glass ornament.  We had just finished decorating the tree and I, following a little tradition of giving my girls a new ornament every year, went to pull my spoils from the bag.  The girls squeeled in excitement as they sat on the couch examining the new ornaments, when out of nowwhere I turned to see the tree going horizontal...fast.  I was thinking about how I had loved all of my old  and scraped up ornaments.  They were a symbol of my childhood that was filled with fear, abuse, abandonment and poverty.  Funny, I had thought that even though those ornaments were battered, scarred, chipped and stained, they had still found a way to shine just as brightly as the new and sparkly ones.  In fact, I had a deep fondness for them more, than any other ones in the bunch.  Now, they were gone.  Shattered and broken to pieces.  Tiny little shards of my past...gone in an instant.  Maybe it was God's way of saying to me...let go of the past troubles, they are gone now...you are free to start a new past after you pick up the pieces.  This Christmas does start a new chapter of my life as things have come full circle, as they say.  It is a close to a year that has seen the prospect of death, renewed life and the loss of those we love.  It has been a year of change and evolution ..for my will, my instinct, my craft and my soul.  A year ago at this time, I wasn't even sure if another Christmas would come to pass for me...a reconing that I will never forget.

I am a different person at this moment because of all that has gone before me ...

and I am grateful.

Beyond Reason

I am being pushed beyond reason.  Obstacles are in my path, impeding my steps "forward".  Funny how the Universe, in all its wisdom, trips you up so that you can see the right way to go.  I have found that of late, I am staring at my long lost wishes of that "certain job", or promotion, or whatever fancy thing that I thought life would bring me...I am staring in amazement because even though I wanted it, thought that I deserved it, felt that it was the right way to go...now is completly and utterly the worst thing that could have ever happened!

I too have been asking for signs, for answers to the foggy questions and prayers that are murmured in times of great dissatisfaction and distress.   Yes, they are coming to show me the way...out the door.  Things are being so shaken up that it is almost, comical.  Silly, really.  All reasons to see the light...lets say a "gentle" forced hand that is to lead you along your truest path.  Are you uncomfortable yet? No?  Well lets see what else can be thrown your way before you concede to your right way, your right livelihood.  Let's see how much more you can handle before the floodgates come crashing down and you are drawn away from all that makes you feel entrenched in dissastisfaction.  What else can you handle, before you say ...enough!

My gentle friends, our time is coming.  We are near to being ready for the courage of a breakthrough.

Are you ready?

Find Me on Papernstitch!

*{Anka Earrings, $22 at Poetica}*

Today starts my little run on Papernstitch, an exclusive, jurried shopping site for small businesses featuring the best in handmade.  After multiple entries, my Poetica shop was accepted to participate.  WooHoo!!!!

Here is a link to my shop there.  Please stop by ans take a  little look see :)

http://papernstitch.com/

xo

Kasia

Featured Seller at Dime Store Daze!

So, how cool is this?  I had the unexpected pleasure of speaking with two lovely ladies the other day regarding some supplies that I had ordered to fuel my creative soul.  Terry, from DimetsoreEmporium, and I were chatting about all things brassy when the subject of Poland had come up in a roundabout way.  Well, it turns out that her assistant hails from Polonia and, as they say, the rest was history!  I had such a nice time getting to know the two of them.

Today, Terry droppped me a message that I was the Featured Seller on her blog!  Thank you ladies, I am honored :)  {Check it out here: http://www.dimestoedaze.typepad.com/}
So, if you are ever in the need of unique vintage or brass items, please check out Terry's website, http://dimestoreemporium.com/ .  You will not be disappointed, I promise!

Wesolych Swiat Bozego Narodzenia Agnieszka and Terry!

New for the Holidays

*:: Bella ::*

*:: Fireside ::*

*:: Winter Berries ::*

*:: Shadows ::*

*:: First Snow ::*

All of these little treasures are available at my Etsy Studio Shop

http://kasiablue.etsy.com/

Let the Holiday Craziness Begin!

A Simple Prayer

Courage

I need you

I welcome you

without you

I will not survive

even one more moment

in the places that

bleed my soul

Grace

I need you

more than ever

to help make my

truth

my life

what it needs to be

Faith

I need you

to hold my head up

when I feel the end

has come too quickly

Hope

I need you

to make me believe

that my hardship

is a means to a better life

that the lessons that I have learned

will carry me through

the entrance to "better"

These things I pray today

for I have reached a point

that will not allow

for the leaching of

my power

my energy

my soul

my happiness

I have come to the realization

that I cannot exist in a place

that does not serve my higher good

but only uses my talents

for their benefit

and none of mine

It is disenheartening

It is gut wrenching

It is terrifying

But please, God

I need your help

to make my life happy

to fulfill the covenants

that I have been asked to fulfill

now, so long ago

Please, from the depths of my soul

show me my purpose

my destiny

my authentic livelihood

so that I may

serve your will

and higher good